I spent most of today in a particularly dark place. I was almost completely immobilized, unable to motivate myself to do anything. I couldn't break out, even though I knew I needed to, and I was beyond the reach of anyone who tried to help me.
It scares me when this happens. It doesn't happen as often now as it used to, which is comforting, but the powerlessness of that feeling is still overwhelming. What is there to do when I'm plunged into darkness, and prayer, Bible study, and company bring me no comfort?
I read through some psalms, and then started on Ecclesiates, which are the books to which I usually turn when I'm in a depressed mindset. I suppose they helped marginally. I guess sometimes the only thing to do is endure patiently, and try to remember and internalize the fact that God won't abandon me.
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