I have said before that it causes the most degrading feeling, being overlooked by those whom you think about the most. It's invalidating in the most unintentional, yet deepest of ways. And while it doesn't do to dwell on those sorts of things, or even to put other people on such a pedestal, the thought still finds its way into my mind occasionally.
As I thought on this subject today, I was given a different perspective: that I should be thinking about God more often than I do. We're told to pray without ceasing, which necessitates dwelling on Him equally ceaselessly, but I know I fail in that endeavor more often than not. Yet today's train of thought led me to speculation about how often He thinks of me. Again, ceaseless is the word. Granted, as He is omniscient, it's obvious that He's infinitely more capable of this than I am. But it is my desire and responsibility to do my best, which I must honestly admit, I don't always.
Although He's above petty feelings of inadequacy, the likes to which I'm prone, to me the reminder is clear that I have nothing to complain about. As He thinks of me more than I am capable of thinking of anyone, the only response is to give Him my utmost. Doing so removes the empty, meaningless idolatry of pining for people's attention, as it restores my own attention to Him who deserves it.
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